Almost a year of this crap!

I started this blog as I was really on a good path toward finding a way to stay away from the main theme of this thing. Leading a life of quiet desperation is exhausting and I had accumulated many tools and sources to stay out of that mindset. As many of us know there are times when even great preparation that are met with high octane challenges can throw us off the path a bit. Luckily the foundation I built within myself, my family, and my community has gotten me through.

So not to go down too big of a “rat hole” I’ll sum up the challenges in just a few sentences. I went from being on top of a PE owned company finance organization to a merger that happened where the plans wipe out most of my resources and leave my future uncertain. I finally came back from a running injury, trained carefully all 2019 so I could launch into training for a 100 miler later in 2020. Right after I signed up for said race I had leg/hip pain that when I got it checked out turned out to be a stress fracture. Game over for 2020. Of course then there’s this global epidemic that’s turned all of our lives on their ear. To sum it up I have professional uncertainty and my body has broken to where I can’t do the thing I love, running.

So what to do? First of all the years of mindfulness and hard work have given me a foundation that has allowed me to keep a decent if not great attitude throughout this time. I know that just continuing to be me and work hard will make the professional path work itself out. One of the more difficult things is not being able to run. There’s something special about running to me that feels like it cleans my mind out every day. I can’t even walk for exercise which is terribly frustrating and it’s been months. Even though I am not a big fan of swimming my triathlon days have conditioned me to be able to do it. Now that the athletic center is open on a limited basis I swim at least a mile each day. My obsessive mind has me thinking of long distance open water swimming as a next hurrah. Hopefully I’m smart enough not to bite on that idea but I’ve learned that when I say I don’t like something there’s a short circuit in my brain that pushes me to do it anyway.

So to bring this post to a conclusion, after a tough year of having quiet desperation poke at me I’m back to fighting back. Life is too short to mope about so let’s all take a deep breath and thumb out nose at adversity and get back to a life of NO QUIET DESPERATION!! Cheers!!